I recently moved a new state, and suffered from culture shock. I took me a while to figure out the proper wordage to place on the feeling. This is a place where everything I have ever know has been turned on its head. I have never felt so disconnected to the pulse of consciousness in my life. And honestly I do not like it here. You know what I hate it here, no cap.
That just the truth of the matter. However I am not stuck here by any means. I stay because of the lessons and blessings I have received by walking the path. I don’t gang bang over God, but I will not take away the credit of the One shaping me into a better human being.
(BG)
I was raised in a kind of bubble, human interaction and touch where not giving to me by my mother. I spend most of my childhood raising my siblings. I say all that to say, I wasn’t raised like most people so I study social interactions among normal people.
There is a unwritten law among men about feelings, who should have them and why. It is unmanly this and that.
Point, a woman was in love with me and very much wanted to be my girlfriend. At the time I couldn’t understand why she fought tooth and nail for a title. “What difference does it make if you get the title? If you have everything that goes with the title. Without the title?”
Then I moved here. The loneliest place on the earth. People don’t even try to connect to each other at all. They talk and talk. But they say the same thing over again. There is a feeling of death in the energy. It is a feeling that if you are not from here it feels like peace, but under a closer inspection; you see the truth.
However if you have some type of title in their life that’s different. People are all about routine here. Eat, do, say, go to the EXACT SAME THING EVERYDAY. Yes the caps was necessary to express the exactness. I am from St. Louis that may get you hurt in so many ways. So clearly I am ready to pull out my hair.
Wrapping this up. Man meets woman. Man wants woman. Woman wants man. What’s the problem? She wont give me the title needed to proceed. LOL! and Ha!
Carma is a “B” and I made sure this time, she was beautiful.
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